In the dark I thought I heard somebody call

also include the way to shake off the immense depression on the fact that the previously stated female drove 270 miles to cuddle with you in bed and that you're in deep love with her and that you got the first good night's sleep in 2 years, lost the chronic insomnia for a whole month, also being truly happy for the first time in as long as you can remember, also knowing she was finally safe, for at least those few hours in your arms, and then her wanting to stay but you making her go because she had an important thing to do the next day and then hating yourself for it but also accepting it because had she stayed you woulda' indirectly made her sad for a long time and would've hated yourself more for it, and then she leaves and you cry inside for days on end and still cry inside and are still depressed and sad and would do anything to see her again and she's still in love with that other guy, who's also a great friend of you'res, and you want to tell her you love her but that might mess up her relationship with teh other guy and the other guy makes her happy even if it's just a sexbased relationship and it's not approved of by yoiu, but seincee you spend every waking moment trying to make her content, not saying anything will keep her happy, so yeah... oh and also tell me if you think i should tell her i love her, and if so, when?... so yeah.............. i want to cry so bad....